Catching MeCryingAll aloneRememberingRegrettingYesterday's memoriesMaybeEvenBeforeEnoughForensics appear,Over the-Radio, you and-Everyone could like to hear a tale,I'll speak lightly.Trailing your lovely lustRiver crushing my throatIn timePeople will see the uselessness in me-And think,Never did I see her dying."Did you even-Bring back my sinking body?RegretfulEnvy.AnonymousKilling sprees I beg of you to carry me before I trip and break, because this is all it would take
Monsterous Mess of MeClean up the mess,Don't hesitate.Hide your face,You're such a disgrace.The scars of her wrists,Possess such an unnatural twist.Fingers ripping at her hair,She wonders,'Why do they care?'Her boyfriend's the best,But she deserves much less.As she bites her lips until they bleed,She pleads, and offers herself to God-""What did you want me to be"I may fall down on my knees,But, baby, please-Forgive me, like you always manage to.So, I can finally make it up to you.When the suns drips down,As the rain pollutes with its silent sound-She's ready to drown,What a stupid frown.Now, looking in the mirror,Noticing the girl I see.The ugly figure staring back at me,Everything I wish I wouldn't be-Too bad that's exactly what's inside of me.""Suicide set me free""Suicide broke my family"The little girl she wants to be,Has long left her a monster,In this society,She's lonely and filled with anxiety.The glass shatters around my body,Hollow and empty,Loose and Ragged,Bea
F U C KForget any form of love! Under the stare of God, I swore to you,Count the memories with your eyes.Killing my fragile skin was such a sin.Into the darkness,Together, by me, we'll make it through.Alas, roses wilt and twist to dust,Lonely as the petals flit and crust,Laughing, their free and no longer used- To prompt lust
Because of HimLighting the darknessOut of the light and into the realism,Vocalizing the way this wind whispers against these lipsIgniting the energy resting idle in nimble finger tipsNetting is so simplisticGiven the right, and precise tools, it may mold the perfect history History, how much the past compensates with and forIn time, the present is un-wrapped and,Mailed to a time where we're all-Marked and branded like a select breed of cattle. .Annexed and secluded,Knitting wool memories so that loveElapses into something warm and fuzzy! Stitches look so ugly, when compared to things crocheted.Mild, timid, sensitive,You have shown all these attributes to the little child inside of me.Here, in this room, everything is utterly emptied.Every poem and story of purgatoryAgony, so silent, I can feel the skeleton within this body-<b>
Roses- New MeaningRemorse is so easily referenced to an ache Oasis, this defined the plain and simplistic quake,Shoke old beds, and so will opinions awake.Excruciating resentment for their smiles,Shining so bright such as the Northern lights,Sometimes one day means for now, everything may be all right.
Forgive What's Left of MeThe mirror,Shows all of,These worthlessTears!The razor-Is full of previous andPast fears I have yetTo watch disappear.They rub and smear,I witness,All the sneers and hold fastMaybe the looks won't last?Talking fast,Why can't I find the words?I want to write with blood,Would I be shunned?I hate,The constant worry,My world has gone blurry.Everyone is rushing past in such a hurry.It wasn't you,It was this,Messed of versionOf what I was supposed to be!I can't make you happy-Yet you love me.If I bleed,Will you cry over little worthless, me?The screams will carry,This body far from,It's useless dream,Please-Forgive me.
EveryDayIf I close my eyes tight,I can see a make-shift light.Tucking me in,Saying: "Ask forgiveness for your sins."Then again,There's your hand,Tugging my body,So I can stand.I screamed at you,My voice smashed down without a sound,And how did you react?You said "I love you" right back.My cheeks are wet,But I bet-You'd make me smile,Erasing the tears all the while.I need you,I can't laugh,I would not enjoy anything,If you were not a part of my "everything."I pray everyday,That you're okay,And that I'll always be allowed to say,"Please stay
Nothing SeriousNothing serious, he says.How simple these words can be,When he doesn't even see,They aren't working for me.Nothing serious, he implores.Six Syllables,Fourteen letters together--We react, exactly like, lace and leather.Merely to those simple,Fourteen letters.Nothing serious, he says.Just one little line,Was supposed to sway our minds?Not this time,I won't forget all the days I've cried.Nothing serious, he presses.When will he see?These words scare me,More then anything.
The 'Im'Perfect Girlfriend.:The [Im]Perfect Girlfriend:.-Hair down and curled, lip gloss on with eyeliner and a regal opposition.Hair tossed up, no make-up, and watching a documentary about Religious oppression.-Dolled up and sweet, hoping for the best and planning out what she's going to say. Innocence is her picture.In sweats and a un-flattering shirt, not worried `bout shit. Her lost virginity a tragic puncture.-Asks you about your day, makes you diner and indulges beside you with her body, so elegant and smooth.Ignores issues and would burn down a house toasting bread, she showers alone, atelophobia a constant bruise.-Athletic and charming, she wasn't neutered by reality, she still has pride to show.Thrown and cursing points of life's blasphemy, neighbors hear her screams.-Afraid to give herself to you, with her body that of our Heaven's mercy, Ready to take the fall.Willing to expose the inner ache, give and take. Knowing a mistake
Don't.Don't do anything.Anything at all.Don't cry.Nor cut.Don't try to fall.Don't think it's all over.Don't try to leave this place.Stay.Stay here.With me.For all eternity.We can laugh.And joke.We can think of this as a hoax.Make it unreal.Learn how not to feel.Be happy with ourselves.Feel joy once more.Please Don't.Don't leave.
LoveLove is but a rose.Beautiful and romantic.Then stings you as you get close and hurts you at the touch.Silenced by the blissful torture.Dark is the day, when it dies.Yet reborn by the bitter cold that killed it.And love is again as lovely as at first.
Dying so YoungYou open your eyes and look at meI stare back at you helplesslyYou look so pale and weakAs you lie on this hospital bedA huge white bandage covers your tiny little headYou reach for my hand and hold it tightAnd all of my strength washes awayAs tears fill my eyesI try to hold them back but it's no useThey fall down my cheekI know you're dying and there's nothing I can doYou're my best friend, without you there's no reason to go on.You release my hand and wipe my tearsYou smile with your pale white lips"Don't cry" You sayI hold your hand andI close my eyes shut for a while.Then your hands start to lose its grip and my eyes open in fear.It's time.You take a deep breathYour last breathand your eyes closeI stand there and watch as your body fades"I'll miss you" I Whisper and pull the sheets over your face.
WorthlessI'm worthless,She's priceless.Her smile was enchanting,My attitude is merely irritating.She held beauty,My skin shows agony.Her finger was glazed in gold,Her body was not so naked, that her tears froze.It is hard to believe,You could love what's left in me.I shall try and stop comparing,Everything we were never sharing.I hope to keep on hearing,You're constant praising."I love you"A future I see with you.A feeling I cannot ignore.So I implore,"You are all I need and more."
Fake Smile's.A smile is a sign that someone is happy,no one ever thinks otherwise.Sometime's a frown forms on peoples lips,but when your hiding something.You smile to hide the frown,With out the smile your open to the world.All your pain and misery,And you dont want that.After time the smile is an enemy,And a war with yourself starts.A side of sadness and a side of happiness,Sadness is winning.Time has caused to many painfull memories,And the happy one's to fade.The clock is ticking,It's a bomb that could explode any minuet.Tick, tock, tick, tock,Something snaps within you.Your screaming and scratching yourself,Yelling at yourself in a mirror.The word's of which your parents used,Your using them now.The sadness has won and you smash the glass to pieces,Falling to the floor, blood all around you.You finally smile with happiness,realising this is the end.And your acctualy happy,The smile is not fake, but it's real.
I Think LoveA quaint little smileIs all it takesTo make my heart soarA cute little giggleIs all it takesTo make me adoreYou don't know my feelingsYou probably never willI'm weak and good at hidingI think I love you but stillI will never come out and say itNo matter how bad I want to tellYou will never know my feelingsThis puts my heart through hellAnd for this I am truly sorry
A Girl Named AnaI sat beside her every day of class for a year yet I knew nothing about her. Scarlet Jones never smiled and I often caught her wiping tears from her eyes. I thought of her as a freak, I never asked if she was okay and maybe I should have. I didn't ever think I was selfish until she was gone for a month.She returned but still never smiled and instead of wiping tears from her eyes she brushed them off her cheeks. I stopped her in the hallway one day and asked if she was okay. She only shook her head, her eyes filled with pain.She didn't say anything for a few moments only pulled up her sleeves revealing her scarred wrists. The worst ones by her veins were a bright pink and appeared to still be swollen. "I suffer from anorexia nervosa it makes me crazy, makes me depressed. Ana rules my life." She said pulling her sleeves back down.I looked at her shocked and turned away walking away from her it was too much for me to handle. I still wonder why I turned away was it because it was too mu
Used To - SadI used to have friendsI thought I could trust,But they faded awayAnd left nothing but dust.I used to have dreamsThat I treated with care,But they slipped through my fingersAnd I caught nothing but air.I used to be strongWith a shield nothing could harm,But now I am weakFor I've been disarmed.I used to be happySuccessful and smart,How is it thenThat it all fell apart?
A Total MessEngraving all the hateful words you use,Upon the canvas of my skin,I truly hope you are amused,At the sorry state I'm in.I listen more than you ever knew,I know, I'm Fat, I'm Ugly, A Pathetic, Useless Whore,Your words ring loud and true,So now I'm bleeding on the floor.Cut so deep and never stop,Feel the pain just drain away,From my shaking hands the blade will drop,It's too late to make me stay.I hope you know you've won,Made me a total mess,But now you've had your fun,And it's your turn for the stress.I might be gone forever,But I will have my revenge don't you see,Nothing will make me stop Never!From causing you the pain you've caused me.
Not Strong EnoughMy other armA clean canvasWaiting to be turned into artWith red liquidSlashed and gashed on itThe razor is my brushIt's astonishingHow it can leave it's mark on the canvasWithout having ink or paintThe clean canvasIt wants to be drawn onThe need grows strongerAlthough I opposed myself to itI'm not strong enough...
More Than You'll Ever KnowIt's starting again.I knew it would come.Even though nothing will happen,my heart still goes numb.Even thoughwe've never kissed,I still love him.I just can't resist.He's not always around.He shows up sometimes.And when he does,I lose my mind.I can't have him.He's not that way.But still I think:I'll make him change!He still is polite.Even when,I told him the truthway back then:"I have feelings for you.""I know" he said.I'm sorry my love.I sat and plead."I can't be what you want,I can't love you like that."His truth stung harsh."I can't love you like that."Time has passed,weeks months years,my feelings haven't changed.My affection remains clear.It would be but too easy,to let you go.But if there's even just a little,I'll try to make it grow.I love you.I love you.I love you so,I'll love you morethan you'll ever know.
The Misunderstood.Walking down the street,Going to school,Dreading every minuet of it.No one understands.They don't get it and disregard it.I'm losing it,My sanity is crumbling,My life is soon to be changed.No one understands,They don't get it and disregard it.My loneliness is all I have,No parents or friends,I'm just a walking shadow.No one understands,They don't get it and disregard it.Walking down the halls of school,With the shard used to harm me,I harm anyone in my way.No one understands it,They don't get it and disregard it.Moving the lifeless beings,Spelling out my feelings,Everyone can see.They understand it,They do get and don't disregard it.
ForbiddenWe will stand togetherAs we lay down our livesIn life our love forbidden our relationship condemned We could not stay togetherBut in death we shall eternally be with one anotherThere sharn't be any fightAs in life, your beauty shines brightAs you take me away, from this lifeBe this heaven or hellAs long as I am by your side, it is haven to meSo we will lay down our livesFor one anotherFor love
Give Up -ReversedG etting on my wayI 'll fight for everydayV ortexes won't block my stridesE nough talking!U ntil time claims these bodies,P raise our destinies and the enemies.